Back at it.

I guess I haven't beeb on here in ages, and to tell the truth I have gained a few pounds to say the least. In the last 5 years I went from about 215 to 175 and stayed there for awhile. I got stuck at 175 because I was happy I achieved a 40 lb loss and just didn't want to push myself. A few times I got down to 170 but never saw that 169.

Wellll....a few days ago I weighed in at 181.4 NOT GOOD! I bought an elliptical last week and I'm getting back in the eating better game and I'm not expecting anything but I'd at least like to get to 165 by the end of the year.

I just gotta keep pushing and start trying new things in terms of food and exercise. I promise to update this with the food I eat each day and the exercise..let's see where this goes!

Oh and in terms of flea market findings that will be in another post...let's just say its been good real good!

Man checking in on here already makes me feel better!

Follow my blog with Bloglovin Time to move on to bloglovin and start making this blog a bit more serious. Lets see how this goes!

Wow so it has been a crazy week, I'm officially 23. 

Since it was Easter and my birthday I must say that I have not been eating the best lately. Well I never really eat a lot of food I don't always eat the right things. Often times I eat what are supposed to be healthy foods like string cheese, or rice chips but I eat a lot of them because they never really satisfy my cravings. 

Life is stressful sometimes and I have an anxiety problem that doesn't help. I'm not the type of person who eats when they are sad or stressed, as a matter of fact I eat more when I'm happy. I think it's because when I'm upset I am much too focused on the problem and my anxiety almost makes me nauseous. It's kinda weird I guess. I just over think things way too much.

I did however figure out a few things this week that have somewhat inspired me:

  

1. I bought new shoes finally (see I have pronated flat feet and an extra bone in my right foot and sometimes it makes me feel like I'm crippled even at 23, and may need to get surgery :/)  they are Nike Lunareclipse 2 and they even have Nike + on them which help you track your workout progress       They remind me of LMFAO haha They are super comfy and they even fit my specially made inserts! Geeze I sound like an old lady getting excited over such things haha
2. Also I worked out on Saturday, like really worked out for the first time in a long time and man do I still hurt. Lucky for me my boyfriend is trying to lose weight too and he knows how to work out and has been killing helping me haha  

• 4 sets of  10 15lb Kettlebell squats and 30 secs of jump rope 
• 20 minutes on the bike and 
• 25 minutes on the eliptical and I wanted to die haha but also I felt accomplished and discovered that my body can handle things that I didnt think it could do!   

Maybe these don't seem like the biggest f(ea)ts in the world, but to me they are great. I am slowly getting there and I want my goal of 160 to be a reality. I can do it! 

Whilst initially I wanted this blog to be about the flea market I think that the title of this blog provokes another layer of life in the sense that life in fact is fleeting, and it is what you make it. Nobody or no thing can hold you down.

See something in my life has held me down, literally and figuratively. It's weight. At one point I was over 215 lbs and I felt trapped and overwhelmed. However over time I was able to slowly drop the weight to 175 where I have stayed stuck for 3 years. While its good to maintain, I need to jump over this plateau. IT'S TIME. I'm not particularly happy with it anymore and something needs to be done. And it will.

See I have a game plan and a to do list:

New gym membership
Work out at least 3 days a week
Weigh-in only once a week
Eat 1,200-1,400 calories of "good food" a day (start of slowly)
Don't focus on speed of weight loss
Focus on small victories
Do it for me 
New gym workout playlist
Less alcohol

Lastly