Wow so it has been a crazy week, I'm officially 23. 

Since it was Easter and my birthday I must say that I have not been eating the best lately. Well I never really eat a lot of food I don't always eat the right things. Often times I eat what are supposed to be healthy foods like string cheese, or rice chips but I eat a lot of them because they never really satisfy my cravings. 

Life is stressful sometimes and I have an anxiety problem that doesn't help. I'm not the type of person who eats when they are sad or stressed, as a matter of fact I eat more when I'm happy. I think it's because when I'm upset I am much too focused on the problem and my anxiety almost makes me nauseous. It's kinda weird I guess. I just over think things way too much.

I did however figure out a few things this week that have somewhat inspired me:

  

1. I bought new shoes finally (see I have pronated flat feet and an extra bone in my right foot and sometimes it makes me feel like I'm crippled even at 23, and may need to get surgery :/)  they are Nike Lunareclipse 2 and they even have Nike + on them which help you track your workout progress       They remind me of LMFAO haha They are super comfy and they even fit my specially made inserts! Geeze I sound like an old lady getting excited over such things haha
2. Also I worked out on Saturday, like really worked out for the first time in a long time and man do I still hurt. Lucky for me my boyfriend is trying to lose weight too and he knows how to work out and has been killing helping me haha  

• 4 sets of  10 15lb Kettlebell squats and 30 secs of jump rope 
• 20 minutes on the bike and 
• 25 minutes on the eliptical and I wanted to die haha but also I felt accomplished and discovered that my body can handle things that I didnt think it could do!   

Maybe these don't seem like the biggest f(ea)ts in the world, but to me they are great. I am slowly getting there and I want my goal of 160 to be a reality. I can do it! 

Whilst initially I wanted this blog to be about the flea market I think that the title of this blog provokes another layer of life in the sense that life in fact is fleeting, and it is what you make it. Nobody or no thing can hold you down.

See something in my life has held me down, literally and figuratively. It's weight. At one point I was over 215 lbs and I felt trapped and overwhelmed. However over time I was able to slowly drop the weight to 175 where I have stayed stuck for 3 years. While its good to maintain, I need to jump over this plateau. IT'S TIME. I'm not particularly happy with it anymore and something needs to be done. And it will.

See I have a game plan and a to do list:

New gym membership
Work out at least 3 days a week
Weigh-in only once a week
Eat 1,200-1,400 calories of "good food" a day (start of slowly)
Don't focus on speed of weight loss
Focus on small victories
Do it for me 
New gym workout playlist
Less alcohol

Lastly